Friend or Foe??????

Honestly, If u don't know bout me please don't judge me....and to the gossiper....please look at urself......u're good enough??hehhehehe...might be u jealous look I'm happy have family who're very supportive......especialy my mum and my sis........not like ur family......hehehehehe
I stop think about love......now new programme.........savings for holiday and run a business.....
man always make us heading..................huhuhuhu last post I wrote about stupid girl still remember that????
She destroy everything...after my family startedto accept him....n because of his friend shouted and scolded....because of text given by stupid girl my aunt ask me to let him go............and no need to be part of them...................I'm family's person anything I'll ask their opinion first so??ehmmmm just forget about that...............
friend are always honest with the relationship.....but foe take advantage and selfish........ai've a lot of friend but special friend still can count....i don't like to be friend with narrow minded person... pretend u're such a wonderfulgirlbiut actually u're weird girl..
Just talk nicely with us because want to know what playing around in our mind and heart....and busybody bout our personal life.....please..............may be I'm lack of knowledge about Islam and not islamic like u...But step by step day by day i improve myself.................I'm praise born as muslim and happy about my journey's of life.........
Idon't like to hide anything bout my life but some how rather I need to think about my family........
mum,kept pushing me to get married................but honestly I'm wont...........
I've my own dream..........


working with Malaysian's ambassy(any country)
further my degree+Master+Phd
build up my own brand
have my own Orphan centre.....
(I love kids)




hugs,
yaya

HAPpy birthday to Mahmoud

happy birthday

happy birthday

happy birthday to u........

Turned to 22....

Gonna b old man.....Nope..hopefully being more mature....

Eventhough u're very far from me and beyond my reach but still should b ok......

U're such a wonderful man....kept make me laughing........

but I let u go with ur close friends....I knew they need u more.......

that's was my present.......

Hugs,

farayaya

~Excited 2 days more!!!!!!!!!

I have beautiful journey of life.....I've made a lot of mistake before...haunted..hahhahahaha,Working with government it's not my dream job...really...OMG....I couldnt stand anymore...I'm started looking for another job....I do hope this time I make right decision....I'm wont just sit in front of pc without do nothing....

should i ask for forgiveness?

~Alhamdulillah~

Today everythings so,so good.I can't imagine how...but really I'm praise to Allah.....I got my salary today,I send to my beloved mum a little amount....hheheheeheheh I'm so proud of my self......because now I more matured and not selfish...really...mum u're greatest mum....just a little amount I can give u.....

today i took my breakfast outside (bangi area) because I need go to bank,and I have dating with jojo my bloved junior...really....she getting taller...I hated that...177cm and me just 162cm so how short I'm......While I having my breakfast sudenly I felt I want to change my simcard...huhuhu so excited....he called me last night but I switch off that number....I just give him a called...he pick up even he still slept..thanks dear......I'm really happy.....

I'm appreciate people around me more than before.....I love my life now even some how rather I felt sick and tired to face it...But I believed Allah arrange everything perfectly...and as human we need to appreciate and pray for that.

I miss the moment when I'm turned to 13,my mum are my bestie..everything we're sharing together...
I loss abdo...but I really wont to think bout that..Whatever..........anything happend I do have my mum,My sister and my dad......and of course I have mahmoud+hadif......


not to forget my beloved Frenzo...............(very beautiful gul)

21st November 2009

En.Azman our boss passed away at Hospital Selayang this morning.Even I've been here just 4 months I can felt he's good man and good boss also.I'm sure his wife very strong and can accept all this.First time I went to precint 20,I also visit datin sri Endon grave's.I was cried in front of Bob,K.ida and Peter...ashamed,how his son want to survive after this without his father?I cried because of that....I'm thinking bout my father,now he can't walk like before..I don't know when his operation..I hope he allow doctor to operate his leg...I'm worried about him....how I can live without him???my dad is the greatest man... good father,i love him.... suddenly I remember my late uncle.....I miss him damn much, i miss his laughing.....He's very good uncle.....for me I just have him as my uncle.....27th June 2009 will be the date that I never forget, almost a week my mum stay at hospital to take care of him and me, I need to take care of my granny..(my sis she wont to stay at my granny's house so everyone push me)we have money but why my uncle wont send him to private?why everyone push my mum only???My mum volunteerly to care bout him and thanked to my dad because allowed her. I saw how good my mum...she's strong person and she sacrifice her time...not like others...that moment I'm driver of my granny...huhuhuhu...I love to drive her car......she only trust me to drive her car, so funny....even sometime she's fussy but she's the only one my granny.....the one things I don't like about her she very love outsider compared to her relatives....now everyone realized money is not everything....except her....heehheheheeh,


hugs
yaya

~excited 8 month more to go~

ready or not to change ur title from single to married?????ask urself.....nothing imposibble...I'm tired heard my mum kept nagging bout me....when u want to get married..mak please I'm still young....so to make her satisfied I'll get married next year...I hope so..who're the special guy???better u ask my mum....wait and see.......But I'm worried every1 will keep laughing on that day.....huhuhuhu so please it's a big suprise

for sure he's someone very special,ordinary,moderate,humble and naughty....I like it.....so now started to arrange and plan everything........

Me and him arrange everything,...my family just wait and see what'll happen next...........

muMy yaya& Mama yuz

Something remind me..........hheheheheh I do love putri& eqal called me Mumy Yaya..until my cousin called me MUMIA....so funny...., yesterday someone proposed me........but U broke my heart before...

I miss Him

oh Mygodness!It's been long time so long.I've missed all of ur terribly,It's been very busy time for me lately, but things are looking up.I've worked extra, and good news I'll buy new car.....almost 2 months u've been there.....I'm so tired....Coz damn miss u.....I loss u.....really?or I'm too emotional???almost 3 days we're didnt contact each other, U didnt text or call me......I felt u're far far away from me.....u're beyond my reach....Dear, really u want let me go?ehmmmm

i'm waiting for u....U know I'm excited waiting for next year....become a student back.........really....Hheheheheh mahmoud I'm freaky miss u+haikal+my family

Hugs

yaya

happy birhtday to my beloved Cutey~

Happy birthday....

Happy birthday to u.....

Asyraff haikal...19 November...

today u turned to 4 years old, times flies very fast......just like yesterday u're born......I miss u and love u so much......i still remember 4 years ago.......Excited to celebrate ur birthday.......

~our Besfriend~

LOVELy Friend~

                                                  Very nice man...Min from Korea....

Funny+Nice Girl~Safynaz Kazem

Department's Family day

~Exercise..go yaya Go..U're Getting fat~

this is Old picture actually..2nd month I'm here.......(Department of Censorhip Film)

Model~

my Officemate~

~Lovely Niece Putri Zafira~

Putri Zafirah

Yesterday,my sister K.na give me a called.....so funny...we're chatting about our trip to bali and celebrating her and my parent's anniversary. both of them are sharing the same date 25th December......What the things make me kept laughing????????

My niece turned to 4 years old on 24th October 2009....she loves barbie, U know yesterday she told that her mumy got new boyfriend and his name Roslee...he's freaky old and drive alphad....

She just 4 years old but she kept gossiping her mumuy.....so funny....

Putri : Cik yaya u want to know mama have new boyfriend,

Me :   Really?

Putri : really he give me a called and told me he want to get married with mama

Me:then??

Putri : Of course can't how bout papa????Papa more handsome than him...

Me : I don't think so

Putri : Cik yaya really, he drive alphad my dreams car,and his voice freaky old...

Me : let me talked to ur mum.

K.ana : I just playing games with her...abg Shah knew bout that....

Putri : Cik yaya mama are liar, u know that old man told me he drive alphad but mama said he drive BMW...see both of them are liar....

We're kept laughing....she very talkactive and can't keep secret......ahahahhahahahaha I love u putri....Excited to pick u then we've journey to jb together w/out ur parents....

I'm really Down....

Really down!!!!!!!!

I want goin back to jb....I need to hug my mum,eqal and k.yuz...I really need three of u...I really down now....

Why I'm stupid bout love

He wont u anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!please open ur eye!!!wake up my dear...U need to survive!!!!!!!!!!~~~2nd time crush...Oh My God...
ya Allah

Just for both of u~

both of u my ex-bf........especialy u mahmoud.......

why u give me hope....

but u destroy it?

Why u say I love u

but U didnt trust me....

Why u ask my number....

but u didnt call me anymore....

why u hold my hand

but u leave me alone?

why did u have to wipe my tears

to make me cry everydays......

u've walked far far away,

u're beyond my reach,

All I can see are ur tracks,

All I've are the bitter sweet memories....

A little bit about me

Siti Hajar Farah 

1. 
   
   I've 1 older brother,3 beautiful sister,and 1 younger brother..I'm fifth among six......I'm freaky naughty compared to them....
   
   
   
   
2. 
   
   I'm close to my aunt and cousin..especially aunt nora...she like my adopted mumy...and now I'm close to all my cousin...especially mr.afiz....
   
   
   
   
3. 
   
   I've my nick name yaya,Haziq gave it to me.....,Actually my mum want to give me a name Fara Adiba,but my granny gave my name.....
   
   
   
   
4. 
   
   I want to be a reporter,but what should I do.....I want to be CNN reporter....
   
   
   
   
5. 
   
   I love to travel...Or I guess I should say Would love to travel.....
   
   
   
   
6. 
   
   I'm easily to forgive and forget if anyone hurt me.....For me to hurt someone like I hurt myself....I just can mad a people for 24 hours and after that everythings so,so good.....
   
   
   
   
7. 
   
   I don't like to wait...I'm good in deadlines...
   
   
   
   
8. 
   
   I'm the first who come to office everyday,...Even at my University I'll b the first student to come in class.....
   
   
   
   
9. 
   
   I'm not easily fall in love but once I fall in love I'll love till the end of time....I just hav had 1 crush....So I do hope my bf now please don't break my heart.....
   
   
   
   
10. 
    
    I'm very simple person...most of my time I've spend with my family and my bestie.....opPppsss actually with my bf...heheheehehhe
    
    
    
    
11. 
    
    I don't like to watch movie...especially action+horror movie
    
    
    
    
12. 
    
    I do love certain brand only MNG(Mango),Guess,Elle,Esprit,Topshops.....Nicchi....I'm not afford to buy expensive stuff.....
    
    
    
    

Huhuhuhu~That was ME....

Satria neo or Myvi

I'm looking for new boyfriend~New year will comin soon...So new mission+vision+New life+New Boy friend.........................hehehheheehhe I want to buy Getz but quit expensive and I'm not afford to buy that..so I change my mind to buy Satria neo or Myvi...I like compact car..ehmmm I don't like Viva ok...Don't suggest to me...If Perodua still produce new kelisa I'll buy for me...I really love that....

ehmmmMMmm

~YuMMiE+YipPiE~

tension+HapPy

Zira I couldnt change my layout..u know when I want to change suddenly add gadget not appear....ehmmmmm
.Huhuhuhuhu~

Now I'm stronger than before.......Huhuhuhu Nobody's can bully mE......

EhmMmmmmMmmmMmmm

YippIe next week will b the week that I'm waiting for....Goin back to Jay bee.......I want to meet my bestie Nana,Diah+my bloved cousin....OPPPssss first off all of course I wanna to mEet my bloved Mum......Miss her so much....But this time my schedule vEry pack....(that spelling right or not)....Huhuhu wateve~ I've to meet my grandma,my aunt,aiyOOooo ehMmmmm But I really want to meet Diah+naNa+Zira....

I'll try my best ok...
I miss ct...or datin....She just give me a called,She got new bf....fuyOooooooo
Unexpected.....Congrate my dear..hope u hapy with him........
me?????Complicated...
LoVe=unpredictable.........
but honestly...............................
I love him....still love him.......................


Song For him:


I have a boyfriend,


who're very understand,


He wont make me cry,


He kept laughing all the times,


hahahhahahahahhaahah that's all for today...make sure u sing this song correctly....
.

hangOut with My Lovely officeMate

AnnE&aMat..........lovely officemate......I dunno what's goin with me but I jus need sum1 near to me and b good listener.....I'm very lucky to have both of u...Sarawakian....HUhuhuhuhu..Anne u tried to match me with faisal hUhuhu but Of course U cant do that I've my bloved already even STUPID gul tried want to destroy everything She can't do that.....really...Let say I need to let him go...It's ok as long as he's happy..really....I'm not like Stupid gul..Desperate......YIppie~U think u're bachelor student and u fluent in english make me respect u????no way Stupid gul.......Plss.....Plss......I try to believe ur words but I can't anymore sumthing like weird..HuhhhehehehuHUh...
STOPPED!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday freaky happy every1 really taking care of me...thax Zira for ur support..I'll slap that gul....Heheehheeheh...cIk Kak But how I'll slap her????or u do for me......PleasE,.thax cik Nor...Really love u....Diah..I miss u...n thax a lot b good listener......Diah...I owe u and nana....When we'll have dinner together..at banafe village ok...I'll keep my promise..YIPPie~
K.yuz if u read this, I'm freaky love and Miss ur nagging...
mahmoud why u just called me for one times..and didnt pick up my call?????u really want let me go???say something don't pissed of like This...BUT I'm Freaky Love u.....
Nobody can't destroyed our relationship especially that STUPID gul...HehehehehehHE

I'm too emotionaL~

But I leave u to think bout that~
I'm destroyed everything or she did that~

StuPid girl I've never met before

OMG,Ya Allah...Saturday really give me a big test of my life...not really big, Huhuhuhu but I don't know why that girl really stupid.....Fuck u and I wont to forgive u forever" hello have I ask for any forgiveness from u????should I????please la if u read this post stop playing ur games I'm totally tired with girl like u, don't pretend u're good girl....I bored with that....U actually destroyed everything not me.....at first yes I comfort with u,but lately u shown to me who urself.....It's ok mahmoud ignored me now...really it's ok I have big supporter behind of me....Did I care I lost friend like both of u???i really don't even care...U're not honest to be my friend....GIRL please U want me to write here what I felt bout u???no need right but I really Hate u...I forgave u from the first time we met...what u have done that hurt me actually but I kept it inside my heart.......a lot u did,.......U didnt realise it...

My friend and aunt read my previous post..nothing wrong...I never blame u...I just wrote politely...STUPID GIRL!!!~ What u should do is called me and ask me to delete politely and say sorry to me because what u did hurt me......Ashamed!!!!!! pretend a good girl" one more things no need all the time talked same things...I'm not materialistic and not like mischa a bitch...halloooooo If u're not materialistic I really wont to know......U know u pissed off with me and why u read my post.....????wHY?????still want to interfere my life...u threw me already so?????please stupid girl.....U called me bitch before I never said anything!!!!!! I just called u for the first time STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U make everyone hated me...it's ok Stupid girl....Allah Will shown the truth.....I'm waiting for it...

Don't pretend u're perfect girl!

STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!EhmmmmMmMmm

Love him until the end of time.....

Love makes ur life crazy,

Love makes u blind,

Love makes ur world go around,

Love makes u do stupid things........

Love??my privacy......Hhhehehehheh....because I knew my sister won't me to share my privacy's life with all people because sometime we need to kept it..Might be this one I'll share with all of u,I'm praise to Allah my auntie(Cik.Nor) really love mahmoud....she can felt mahmoud is a good man, I still remember when first time he met my aunt,so funny.....He slept at the living room, so funny,:-)....(kept laughing)

That day we went to the airport to pick up mokhtar.....It was the first time I met Nura.....OpPssss Nura actually u did something really hurt me.....But I already forget it...U hug and kiss mahmoud...and he was suprise bout that....because I never do like that..and he waiting for me to do that actually...OMG u make it first......really,Huhuhu...and something bad happened when on the way go back home......Alhamdulillah....everything settled.....At that night we've big quarrel...and we decide to break off, and it was first time he cried in front of me...we just slept around 5 minutes....my aunt knew bout that...Huhuhuhu after that...everything so good...we knew each other better....really.....

Our picture after we had big quarrel last nite(see my eyes)

Mahmoud

I'm not beautiful girl like others,

I'm not cute,

I'm ordinary girl,

I've big nose only.....

hahheheeheh...

But I've family who are very supportive...caring and daring....

so if u love me u need to love my family too~

SwEet~

Yesterday,While waiting at the bus stop,suddenly I got flu,so can u imagine how our environment now??? Polluted,Dirty....Ashamed......I do love my life,simple after finish my work goin back home.....take my rest then Sleep...I love that...Before this, after finished my work I'll hangout until midnight...until my mum kept nagging..Step by step change for that....I waiting for him to comin back...I miss him,now he's in mountain with his beloved family.....I miss her sister.....I miss all the moment with him, Even our love story not like anyone....we need to work hard for it...it is not easy to make my family to accept him...but I'll make sure for that....everyone give the statement that I'm materialistic..am I???? Nope, don't judge my family like that, my parents especially my father looking for anyone those who are educated..I still remember while we have dinner with our big family suddenly my dad said...."who want to be a part of my family at least should have degree"....he never said the man should have a big car or a banglo...never......so?????I hated people who judge me that....my family are very simple....we're moderate.....

2nd Part of my New life

Life must go On........

Nura&Mokhtar.....Ehmm I'm miss both of u, but I'm freaky tired to think bout that.. ..HuhHuhuhu~

Yeah...I got my soul....(sEcret)

I got new friend,actualy not really new, I knew her before at Uitm,but I never talk to her.....FaceboOk Met both of us....we have same interest...HuHUhuhu Her name Nazirah Ahmad.......YEyeyea....

Zira cute gul who have big lips like Agelina Jolie,......

am I right cik kak?????I do love to call her Cik kak......

We're planned to have trip to Melbourne and korea next year,....Did I have Enough money for all that?????Savings la,,....

But I'll go to bali and Bandung on June next year,InsyaAllah...Family trip.....as well as birthday present to my bloved mumMy.....

Aidiladha will comin soon....Yippie....happy can go back to Johor my bloved hometown....

miss tebrau city,miss Singgah slalu....Miss Banafe village....(Eat only)

Getting fat..from 47kg now 50kg.....I don't care....as long as I still can eat and breathe.....

fairus and mawi will have their wedding on 20th Nov,so sorry I can't be there,...Arfah will get engaged on 28th Nov...I hope I'll b there,,...try my best Ok dear,.....my turn????after 5 years...or after I get my degree and after I'll transfer to Ministry of foreign affairs.....

My hubby also don't have his own income....still study and not stabil enough....

~huhuhuhu~

~happY Belated Besday~

~Azhar Amirruddin~

12 November 1996

Happy besday to you,

Happy Besday to you,

Happy besday to Azhar....

Happy besday to You.....

My beloved cousin who very naughty,but very kind....and always cover line for me.....U're 13 years old now...hope being more mature....Don't waste ur money.........

Ur present????let me think ........~

My bestie~

Fairuz@Liza

&

Mahmoud@mudya

Both of them are my best friend now and forever....I've share everthing with them...but a bit stress...Sometime they're not good listener..always nagging and comment............
and blame me......Huh...
but I'm very lucky to hav them...they motivate me and very supportive.....
Sis yuz also my foe...hhehheeheh I'm jealous with her, she's good sister,daughter,aunt and also best student....but u know she freaky lazy to study and love to sleep.....
The one things I'm afraid bout her whe she dun hav mood...hahahahah that moment don't talk to her...she will shouted....like lion......and she freaky sensitive....I still remember that night...hUhuhuhuHu she drive at late night from my grandma's house to our home...just because my aunt said something hurt her....and me bcame her victim.....But she always secure and defend me......I do love u...even we always quarrel each other...I miss u so much......
Mahmoud????He really honest....if he don't like bout me,he'll speak up..eventhough hurt my heart...but it's good....I need to accept it...We're sharing everything....He always there when I'm sad and I need someone....He won't me cry...He teach me how to be strong and ignore what people are saying bout me....He teach me how to be patient....He really born for me.....I miss U my hubby.....

StoRy of My New life~

Boyfriend V/S Special Boyfriend

So funny if girl fighting because of one man,...HuhuhUhu,But did u understand the meaning of boyfriend and special boyfriend...Might be because of I'm too out spoken until hurt one heart...Sorry kak tim for that....But for me mr.f, just only my officemate....I just like to watch his face....but all my officemate gossiping both of us until hurt u,...I love my hubby, I just got him...no more..he's enough for me....HUhuhuhu so funny when people kept gossiping and talking about that.I knew I can't stopped them....but I don't care that.....

Working with enforcement team was the great experience, they were freaky crazy+lazy...Don't mad huH' Just kidding......

I know and understand man better than before,they're very natural.....I still remember when first time I introduce myself,all of them looking at me with a big smile...

Ehmmmm,They kept giving an advice to let my special go,,,,...what the hell???? It's my life why all of u want to interfere????yes u can give ur point of view but don't judge him...Malaysian also have bad boys so???don't judge all foreign people bad....they're also human.....I hate their statement but what should I do as a junior......For me I won't to think bout love...my focus now to build up my career.....build up my brand..that's all....

Don't ever interfere my personal life,..U're not there while I need help,u're not give me money....so???????I do know myself better than others,just taking care of ur life....don't act like u know everything..even I'm 22 years old I have had a lot of experience......

Scarf or free Hair

Some people kept asking me either I'm wearing a scarf or not????It's a big problem for them????HuH, Yeah as a muslim I need to cover my hair with wearing a scarf... But I'm not ready yet, I just wore when go to office and school.......

might b after get married I'll wearing scarf 100%....

I won't to be hipocrit...

Live life the way that you want

And

NOT the way people want to see you,

People come and go out of my life all the times so be Original, no use Copy Cat...

HuhuhUHuhuhu

Love*>^<*

Travel

Everyone can fly now~tag line Airasia......

I love to travel,not only as a hobby but actually good experience and u get to know bout others place better,bout their culture,food....and environment,.Relax the most important reason why people should go to travel...My aunty just goin back to Malaysia after 5 years stay in Japan....I really interested about Japanese's culture and their tradition...I do hope 2010 will be a best time for me and my beloved family to travel and as well as spend time together....Apis (my bloved&close cousin)Love to travel,jealous with him....the end of this year he'll go to Japan....and next year go around Europe........Me???Just Indonesia....but it's ok....I'm very jealous when my friend flight or went to oversea...HuhuhU of course jealous...But if Let say I get the chance to travel I'll bring my mum as well.....HuhUHuhu...Not my hubby ok.....I really admire go to Paris....ehmmmMmm but don't know when I'll b there...I do hope I'll performe umrah and hajj at Makkah...and go to Libya...Huhehheheehh..Meet my hubby's family,

Since I was kids,I admire to bcome stewardess and reporter so that I'll travel...Hhheheheheh,But what can I do, I need to let the chance gone just like that....I got the chance to b a cabin crew for MAS.....MIss that experience, Thax to Mr.hadif who always give me support....but once My mum said no...It'll b no....So now here I'm....Putrajaya..


~HeheheheheheHe that's why I'm looking for foreign people..so that I'll travel~(juSt KiDding)

At Last....My Graduation Day....

After almost 3 years in Uitm Segamat..At last I got my Diploma......6 semester,Unexpected I grad on time.....

Diploma in Accountacy
(Disember 2005-November 2008)

May 2009~Convocation Day

My beloved Parents~

My beloved Mom~

My beloved Dad~

~Friends...Come and Go......

A friend is a crutch when you have a broken heart,

A friend is the glue when things fall apart

A friend is a love that can never let go,

A friend is you and I wanted to know u.......

Friend??????

I have a lot of friend, they come and go out of my life all the times,

At primary school...Huhuhu Did I have my besfriend???I don't think so, because I'm totally different from them,my interest,my life style....HuhUhuhuhu,

But they still my friend.....

yayang the most beautiful that times,

pza like a queen and leader,

cla very cute

yeyen really polite....

zainab islamic...

fifth of them are our click n gang........Secondary school also Same,I don't have bestfriend..My besfriend are my beloved mum,sister and Cousin....I do miss Mr.Al-hafiz.......untill i met my ex-boyfriend...he changed my life....

Uitm the place that I learn how to observed people...tqa,ct,nana,diah are my bestie.....OMG i forgot my super duper talkactive+eat a lot...Nash....she's my bestie until now...we still keep in touch...she's good listener...my first class at Uitm she talked to me but I ignore her...Huhuhu because she like childish,HUHUHhuhuhu,Nash sorry for that....Zayd also nice man....I'm close to him...very helpful...,....I miss all the moment at Uitm...my univercity's life....Me are really good senior...Am I right jojo?????

At Els...I miss ckin...really miss u... .chubby+laser...HuhuhuhuHuhuhUHu.......

I love all of u......

"ParadIse lies at the feet of mother"

Holy Prophet Mohammad Said

"Paradise lies at the feet of mother"

Dedicated to my beloved my mum,

I know I have been giving you trouble  since,

I Started kicking you,

When I was in your womb,

When I was demanding bottle milk in the middle of night at two,

When I was being fussy at seven,

When I was asking you stupid question the time I was twelve,

Give you heartaches and migraines,Now that I'm teen...

Make u worried all the times....Especially bout my Love

But........

There are must be something good in me,

Even if you don't think so,

I may be nasty sometimes but it doesnt mean....

I take everything for granted,

I just want you to know and understand that

I'm thankful and grateful to have you as my Mother Eventhough I'm not sure if you are thankful to have me as your daughter or not...


Fara love mak more than I love myself....U're Queen of my heart

A Part and Parcel Of myLife

~SweeT ~

&

~OrDiNaRy
GiRl

Primary School:~

I misS that Moment.....My teachers,my friends..............Pp,Munir,Cla,azie,yayang,Edah,Elly,deen,ainol,zainab.....(my deskmate)

we're at the same class....

I was assistant leader...wearing spectacles..everyone called me Mickey mouse.....

HuhUhuhuhu Cute~

UPSR???ehMmMmmMmmm

So FunnY all of us I thought we're just playIng around....

Study??ReVision????

never>>.Might b I thought I'm gifted...
I've our own click.....Yayang,edah,cla,yeyen,Me&zainab....

SECONDARY SCHOOL :~

I'm a leader....huhUhuhuhu...Up to date~Famous~Wanted~Naughty

Miss my bloved Teacher...Pn Habsah,Pn.Marina,

I'm Debaters....Best Debaters>.....

That's why now None stop talking 24/7...

I'm very naughty.....

my mum gave me money to pay tuition fees..But I didnt.....

Hehehehehheeheheh

I'm freaky naughty....at the age of 13,,I got my handphone.....

Still remember that........

SEk.Men.Keb.Semenchu teach me a lot....

~We're HapPy faMilY~

My haPpy Family~

My little Brother~sito-topEk...

Univercity of Sydney Australia

He's StylO :~0

My niece+Nephew.....Very cute+talkactive+Active+Pamper

Amirul Haziq 9th march 2002

Putri Zafira 24th October 2005

Asyraff Haikal 19th November 2005

Hazriq Hakimie 14th October 2006

Putri Amiera Haziqa 20th July 2006

Putri Zafira+Putri Amiera Haziqah

Amirul HaziQ

Asyraff Haikal

~My beloved sIster~

ayu hayati

Rohana

Fairuz Liza

My Bloved Sister...Fairuz liza

RoHana~Super Model...HuhuhUhu

Ayu Hayati...;-O

Times For my Big Family~

Jeng....Jeng......

Behind Left: Bro.Bad,Along,Sis.Gee,Sis aYu,Sis Ana,Bibi(Our maid),Adek,Bro.Shah

Middle Left: Mak usu,Baba,mak

In front left:Anes,ME,eqal,Sis.yuz,Miera

Oh my Leg..I still nEed u....

I wake up as usual, 5.30am....I took my shower and i get prepared of myself.... I walked to the bus stop...and I felt my leg very pain..Oh My GOd.....Ya Allah...I try very hard to ignore it..but freaky pain......deep inside I'm crying......Pain,..... I recalled back how all this things happened..

JULY

The month that I waiting for,..birthday of myself,my sister,my brother,my niece,my auntie.......we're family of July...don't be jealous..............,my birthday but I got nothing....I just got something very bad, during that week my hubby and me we're kept quarrel each other, he ignore me,he didnt wish my birthday,..he didnt gave anything..So I let him go eventhough I won't that.....I'm freaky sad.....I want him back...and that day while I'm on the way to pavillion met my cousin he forgive me and and we're getting back together...I felt like dreams come true.....I keep dreaming...until when I want to cross the road,.....I saw the taxi speed...but why apis still cross???and i hold wan's shirt.....suddenly small accident happened....the taxi collide me..(myself was flew).everyone look at me....OMG....But I still can stand and walk...apis and wan worried bout that.... i'm ok dun worry........no need to get treatment.Really embrassed,I saw someone record what happen there..this year only apis gave me a birthday present....A ticket of dayang concert at Hard rock cafe....then now I got the effect....ehmmmmMmMmmmMmmm Yummie

Dayang nurfaizah at hard rock.....

Dayang & Wan....

(I took this pitcha)

We've so much fun there...:))))

NOVEMBER

The month that gave me gazilion experience..I tried to hate this month but I couldnt...both of my bloved born on this month, every year on this month make me pain, sick....and lonely.....EhmmmmMmmmmMmmmmm I hate!!!!I hate!!!!!! live without him!!!!!... Dis month make my life missing.....Really...I lost Nura n mokhtar!!!! I lost my spicy fOoD!!!!!! I lost my free time!!!! I lost my healthy..... n now I need to lost my leg>????? nope please I still love my leg...n I need it,,,:'( I can't walk like before...IsyhhHhhh...Go to clinic and get treatment????lazy,.....


Less for me...
Some for You...
Enough for Others..

My Life

~yaya@Jaja~

I do blame myself....I blame on my sheer stupidity... Mak and all important person of my life I'm sorry for everything from the first day I'm born or might be from our first meeting..until today.. I know how hard for all of u to taking care and control me.......All I do is give back pain...What a worthless life I lead????? Totally ashamed and embrassed.,,...But did I ask for sorry???? yeah for sure

I've a lot of flaws,I'm stupid and blind about love...9 years such a long times for any relationship,he's my first love and my first crush...but almost 1 years and half we decide to end up our relationship....hard for me to accept it...I'm indebted and grateful to you mr.Hadif...you opened my eyes...I was craving and starved for love...I never love my self back then..... EhMmmMmmmM all only my past story....I took it as a part and parcel of my life...I just need to give myself time to forget you....

I do love my life now.....my family,my hubby,my cutey,my friend and even my job....I move another step of my beautiful life......I never imagine  I'll fall in love with libyan people....he came into my life at the right time..I've been lucky to have u....U try to make me happy...u got the sense of humour...u make our relationship natural,u make me strong than before.....even our culture different But it's not a big problem...u're easy goin and everyone could love u..but need to take time...step by step...bare in ur mind.....

SuperWoman without the SuperPowers

 SuperWoman without the SuperPowers

Can u imagine that?nope right..but that is my new life now.....I have to cover others job, my officemate took  medical leave H1N1....Lately I go back home late,what should I do....But it's good things bcoz I learn a lot.... my healthy also not like before.....ehmmm I really won't talk bout that,... My hubby at libya he went back since last month (12th Oct) But everyday we'll keep in touch....Huhuhu rm2 per minutes???..so imagine by yourself....but so far he the only one my besfriend,mybest enemy,my everything...............i love him more than I could....for me just follow the flow...If my mum didn't accept him now it's still ok...step by step...can't push her to like him......My mum just worried about me,I'm her daughter....she won't the same things happen...so now I need to prove that my hubby is a good man and can take over her job.....HuhUHuhuhu...Then he'll know how difficult to care bout me..I'm freaky pamper+fussy+naughty.....but that was when I'm still not mature enough....nOw not totally change..but bcome a better person....

I love to cook...but just don't have chance to cook at my home,..my mum'll prepare everything for us...might be one day.....but still remember when I'm a student..my room will be the place for my friend especially ct,tqa,Diah,nana,nash,pza,ika and not to forget my bloved juniors jojo and the gang's...to study and hangout..... really bcoz I'll cook for them...espcially in ramadhan....U need to trust me.....

Now superwoman...Huhuhu...dun ever think in this world just have superman...but also have SUPERWOMAN.....HuhuhuHUhu.... and it's goes to mE....even now I loss my beloved friends that I knew her just around 3 month...but I really comfort to talk with her.....I felt down before...but now I need to think bout myself...my healthy....If she and her bf want to forgive me it's up to them...but I just told the truth from inside my heart,......I'm tired really.....U know where u can find me..so if u forgive then look for me...I always waiting for both of u......

I read one of my friend's blog....she talk bout show off I'm quit interested bout that....that I show off????let the people close to me judge that.........

ok la..enough for today...I really tired.........Daddddaaaaaaa

Enjoy the simple things in life

I'm very simple person...really am I??????sometime yes....or might b before I'm a bit fussy all the times..Everytime got money I'll spend it....not Wisely but ehmmmmm...Dunno how to explain....I do love branded items..I dun want to wear night market shirt...(rEAlly)..I only brought the original...SWear with that.....But Now..after working and got my own income....I appreciate money more than before... I've learn how hard to earn money...and how difficult to manage ur money...U need to give ur mum and dad,ur savings,ur house and other expenses..at the middle of the month u need to survive....huH..it's a part of life....I'm praise to Allah because people around of me very understand and encourage me....especially my bloved huby,k.yuz....both of them always keep nagging...n remind me...HuhhUH...Tired to hEar that....But what Should I do...HAhahhahahahaHAh

Now I planNed for my career n future...

I still remember how hard for me to let the offer gone....just like that,Since I'm 7 years old I want to b news reader and reporter...n I do hope I'll become in future....5th July the date of my registration for degree in mass communication major in journalism....But I'm not there...at the moment I'm freaky busy help my grandmother and taking care of her since my uncle passed away on 27th june 2009... U know I'm sad but I need to forgone that,...but younger brother further his degree in Uni.of Sydney on 26th July 2009 and K.yuz do her master 1st July.... Until when I need to burden my mum?????keep asking her money?not like both of them (adek and k.yuz) they're best student and always make my mum happy......me??? repeat the same paper all the times, make my mum cried,,..So I accept this job.....I never think I'll b a part of government servant...Now I'm.....here..working at film cencorship department Ministry of Home affairs.......

2009 will end up soon

I hope next year will b much better than this year...for sure...I'll further my degree.....really hope so.....Spend time with my family more than my huby...do hope we'll have a trip go to bali next year birthday present for my mum....I can't paid for what she have had give to me but just a little sweet memory .....mak fara really love you...eventhough I made u loss ur weight...HuhuHUhuhu I'm excited to see that...because everytime I called u U'll said that......

~Pain says Give me More~

Heart Never learns; a Gazilion mistakes

Life will go on,but mistakes haunt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love the journey of my life...........So exciting,adventuring.....a bitter sweet memories........

eVeryday,Everyseconds gave me a precious experience...HuHuhuhuhu

Had U ever face like I'm facing before????of coUrse never and ever......... Because

Each of us got different experience....

I've been Lucky Born as Siti Hajar Farah binti Tumeran.......

Daughter of  Pn.Saudah Hj Ali & Tumeran Hj Meskin

Sister of Sharul,Ayu,Ana,Fairus,Fared

Aunty & mumy of Haikal,Haziqah,Haziq,Haqimie,Putri.....

Future of???????? wait n see.....