Should I sacrifice my love just because of my past story?Should I let him go because of his friend?Should I accept another man to make others happy?and how about me?I really don't know..I wont to know...Someone told me mahmoud's best friend get married,really?congratulation...
why I'm like this?
Why I too pampered??not strong....
rely on family all the times....
why all the times had a problem need to cry?????
WHY????
never think before do something??????
always burden family???
ask them money???
I try to be independent.....
but I cant......I hated myself......
how long should I stay like this???
until my mum passed away?
until my sis shouted to me:((
I've done a lot of mistake...but they never shouted to me....
but I really don't know how to make them happy at smile back to me...
give them money???they more rich than me....
I tried very hard to survive,
I tried very hard to be lonely.....
but I can't...
I need somebody to be there for me...
somebody to hold my hand...
somebody trust me...
give me a shoulder...
I know Allah arrange everything perfectly...but they no space for them to forgive me?????
Everything happened to me is good and bad experience to make me matured and appreciate my life more than before....
but I never realised that..........now, when u love him....someone talked bad behind u of him..U felt down,U felt sad....but u need to accept that....that is a part and parcel of ur life....nobodys felt as what u felt....nobodys know what happened to u....nobodys care bout u...at the end u need to survive...U need to face it...yaya stop all this things...decide for urself...decide the best things for all...don't ever hurt ur mum heart...don't hurt anyone's heart......
be honest.......and hope 1st muharam I'll b truly muslim...and born as new human....
I hope Allah bless my life....
I hope Allah open my heart to change everything.....
So I'll stop crying...
YAYA I love this name....
Farah in Arabic mean happy...
so please call me that name..so u'll pray for me....
Hugs,
yaya
