No mood

First of all ......

i dun have mood

nak upload pitcha
nk update blog
nk talk to others
nk layan mana2 annoying GIRL
nk apa lg???
sy cuma nak REST je...

IDIOT girl

best words to describe about her....heheheh..First of all, really dont know u, and I wont to know bout ur life..hahaha, from her words mmg la sgt ntuh apa2...pls la..U think ur such a good girl?if ur GOOD then u never hug or hold your BF hands...ishhh ntuhla x payah nk pretend nice and good...I wont to find FOEs ya,..btw seriously nila manusia yg suka sgt jealous tgk others and started to find any point bout me..hahahah either I'm good or not only me and ALLAH know best..so u as human dont ever judge me..did I care ur hubby came from rich family or might be degree holder?I didnt care at all.. I also dont ever touch bout ur personal life...Girls yg educated but dont have stable job always like this or what?

I'm not clever like u,
not cute like u
I even not such islamic Like u show to us...
I'm ordinary person those live life happily...

That why I wont to close with ppl like u and your gang.kept gossipin bout others and show off to ppl...
did I care u're degree holder?I didnt care at all...Everyone can get DEGREE nowdays....seriously if u got MASTER or PHD so I can respect u more..please la young ladies,...x payah nak sibuk cari masalah or what I trying to say here..please taking care of yourself and look back at ur life... seriously I love my life now eventhough I can calculate my friend....
please sayang dont be narrow minded...please ya..... i bkn nk bannga sgt dgn wat I got now...but i'm happy with my family...ya normal gaduh dgn sibs...Normal.....ok...biasala tu...kadang2 meluat tgk ...dahla I wont make it worst

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Just nk coret disini bole x? ehmm if x bole I still nk write something here....

I ni selfish ke?kadang2 terfikir sendirian, ya I'm not a good daughter at all even sister pun mmg totally bad ya, but might b haziq+d rest kata Cik yaya even mam said u're bad but we love u ....u're such a great aunty, ,,,thax aziq, even I dont earn high salary nor so glamour...Cik yaya still sweet+sour....*da stat gedik dia tu....*
staff?mmgla x baguskan, Once we did something we doesnt love at all mmg x sempurna jadinya...am I right?ya totally agreed... Life is so complicated, Dont trust ppl around u at all....please..Tula yg hadif always remind me...sbb bnyk yg terkena, ishh....ntuhla seriously I'm totally tired...miss them badly....
I miss Asyraff haikal, haziq,haziqah and puteri...ya seriously miss them....*da stat nk cry..*
I miss hadif surely, miss Jojo,dulu when still here slalu disturb her, sumtime luahkan kt dia..now she very far from here...Jojo miss u a lot.....hadif promise nk g LONDON nx yer since I let go MAS so ya, hope dia tunaikan impian ku nk g LONDON, setakat BALI nothingla uncle oiii....ahhahaha*blagak x ingt*
senang berkawan dgn org yg happy go lucky and accept kita as what we have, bkn nk kutuk blakang...ntuhla...bila da kerja cni and da terkena sendiri terasa sgt ada juga org yg solat 5 waktu x tinggal tp hati still hitam, kenapa erk?why?kamu fitnah saya, saya dgr dgn telinga saya, if x caya g contact MAXIS ambil record percakapan tu, kamu cuba malukan sy dgn BOSS knapa?ehmmm sbnrnya malas nk fikir psl ni, tp mmg totally x enjoy ddk di kerusi ni bila dia ada di office ni....ya Allah bagila aku kekuatan untuk aku lalui dugaan ini, memang ramai ckp dia mcm tu, tapi sampai bila nk dia teruskan perbuatannya memfitnah org and suka malukan org didepan bos...kenapa perlu cari musuh didalam OFFICE? frankly dalam office ni i da ada 2 org foe....sorg lelaki yg mulut mak oiiii*previous entry, lg sorg yg inila....suka ngumpat boss+org lain tp bila dpn org yg diumppati ya Allah baik sungguh hatinya....biarla Allah balas....

ok..ramai yg tertanya why nk stay with Gov even salary sgt cheaper compare what MAS offered to me...
coz of FAMILY, sy mmg da lama niat nk jg NENDA saya, dah 3 mlm x bole tdo teringt kt dia, entah atok sihat ke x kat sana, kami mmg x berapa ramat coz atok suka cucu lelaki, tapi dia still org yg lahirkan mak saya, SAYANG ATOK, dis yer first time saya bg ATOK wet raya,hehheheeh

my life x la boring sgt mmg bnyk sgt manis pahit putih and hitam...colourful sgt2,

nak saya story ke?if story kat cni mak oii x larat nk baca, seriously mmg bnyk,saya tau bnyk impian sy lpskn mcm tu je, sbb Family, tp x pela..now I started to move one step ahead, run a business, x perlu tunggu wet hadif or my parents, ya, i buat accesories, tp just for myself, nanti if ada org suka I jual la, i make choclate for my niece+nephew, i learnt to bake, semua i nk blaja, I nk semua tau yg I can do it.....

cis....da puas merepek belum?kerja da siap lum?heheheh esok nk g temasek x sabarnyer hope get new handbag......

teach her pls

Once again....I'm back........owh no....

why huh? I thought u have more than 10 years experience why u did to me like this?pissed off.....hello u da minta maaf n I talk nicely why la u like this??? u nk i promoted first baru u respect and talks with me ke? entahla.......bosan btul la....stay dlm office ni dgn narrow minded ppl!!!! pastu perli x psl2!!!!! wei ni office not belongs to u la!!!!!! adui mcm mana nk bg aunty ni fhm????? aduiiiii....bosan la serius gile aku BOSAN, jadi isu ke either to stay or leave????dis is my life la wei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!serius damn aku skt ati.....adalah seorg uncle here yg dahla suka ngarut2 ckp asik berbaur lucah suka la pulak aku....bkn nk preten ALIM,btw not nice talk like that to us...i mean WOMAN...x tau la if certain woman suka kan.....Seriously stupid gila dorg ni!!!!!ada yg terbaca entry ni bacala..... why anyone x support me?bcoz aunty tu da 10 yers experience>?walawei....or dat uncle tu why still nk rude wit me...I still remember one day one of my officemate ask me to MINTA MAAF wit that UNCLE during ramadhan..... I called his name 3 times*nicely I called him* dia wat sebodoh mungkin and IGNORE me...hello ko ingt ko gred jusa ke? ok fine ALLAH know best....aku bersabar dgn harapan ALLAH disis ku...ok ...Hello I'm totally tired la...........bored seh...aku da bosan ni....pak kal je nk pindah mmg leceh dpt surat aku pun dorg suruh wat blk!!! senang2 aku nikah n minta transfer to JOHOR senang continue study n enjoy my life.....x la mcm ni at least hadif there for me.....

mana integriti yg semua org perjuangkan?mana team works???nila org melayu bkn nk back up kita malahan jatuhkan kita???adakah anda akan support org yg nk org lain mundur?galakan apa yg dia lakukan? kedekut ilmu n information with others.... did she realised yg experience is d best knowledge ever so x pyh ckp korg kan blaja tinggi x kan x reti buat.....bole x hati tu baik ckit ....BOLE X? org yg x berhati baik je mcm ni tau x???x kisahla solat x tnggal ke ape tp if ati da busuk maka busukla semuanya.....

since stay n being here ntuhla aku rasa damn mcm layu...betulla mantan Pm kita ckp melayu ni layu..mudah lupa...same here la....if kerja private dpt plak mcm ni...aku pak kal je parents suruh stay if x dah lama aku terbang da.....ONE DAY ni janji aku IF aku jd SUB or org BESAR aku mmg nk tukar mind set old folks here....we should work dlm condition yg selesa syg n respect n help each other....x kisah kita dah lama kerja or ape ke...btw if kita ada smgat teamwork msti x mcm ni.....ntuhla....maafkan aku yer....

if kamu jadi BOSS jgn dibiarkn kamu tunduk kepada anak buahmu...tapi kamu bimbing dia if kamu rasa kamu boss tp kamu x layak g mana2 training bg confident ckit diri tu...ni most of the boss nk bckp pun aku tgk .....xknla nk biarkn bila kita bckp org gelakan kita?patut ke???????jgn biarkn dirimu dimalukan atas sbb perlakuanmu....

JGN ada A.B.C dlm office ni.....org tikam dr blkng..biarla kita maju n bjaya sama2 kerna kita sebangsa n seagaman n senegara.....

fikirkanla...aku mmg x baik tp aku kesian tgk org2 kt sekeliling ku ni...nk bangga dgn harta n rumah yg kamu ada?pasti ke dari sumber yg halal?nk bermegah didunia?x takut ke yg di akhirat kelak???jgn terasa if kamu mmg dr family kaya raya OK.....

ingatla bila kita mati kita tinggalkn bkn harta tp anak2 yg soleh n solehah mendokan kita dan juga amal kebaikan...kerna yg di atas x tanya berpa bnyk harta anda tinggalkn...

keluhan dari insan biasa...

hugs,

yaya

Should u give respect to them?

Assalamualaikum,


Today first day after almost 2 weeks didnt go to office wearing malay entire...felt damn nervous and excited, as u know I'm not strong enough to face all old folks n narrow minded ppl inside here....Owh goodness...BLOG is not the rite way actually to LUAHAN PERASAAN, btw it's hard for me to face it alone.....ya, certain ppl might say i ni MULUT LASER....somehow rather ya,I'm thinkin I'm too...but hav reason why I gonna be LASER...
almost 2 weeks MENGHILANG , gazilion story I heard bout me, yeah...ALHAMDULILLAH... adif advice me a lot....he always asked me to ignore this ppl yg made my life sucks....btw I totally cant....owh no, silent is better kot....
Bukan niat ku utk menguris sesiapa dlm Office tu, bkn niat ku nk kurangajar.....but that really I x marah u, n u kept gossipin to d rest yg hajar MARAH u? why huh?not just that certain of them x abes2 nk know bout my life? ya mmgla ambil berat tp if smpi tahap meluat nk wat mcm ne?kept silent ke?ntuhla why dis ppl still WUJUD dlm dunia serba modern ni? kan da ada internet if u rasa bored g surfing internet.....bole x? now da rasa lain g office btul x? ehmmmmm really la frustrated bout that.....

I want IT

Seriously sakit hati sgt....bila hati sakit celphone mmg jadi mangsa..padahal dia langsung x bersalah...sedihnya..dalah mahal bli pastu sng2 je campak mcm tu...x skt hati ke????let me noe...plessss...mmg sktla...skt teramat....so now? mmg nk bli hp sendiri jg baik2 hp ni...

ni handphone if nk so Ok la..I think price pun x la melambung sgt...he asked tp mbuy kt singapore since kt sana da launching...kt sini je mcm lembap sikit...what should I do...,....

btw I'm thinkin this time i bli blackberry bold 9700 so msti x campk lps ni....I jaga dia more than I jg myself poyo x???POYO abes,.....OK...Now mmg mood REgret x sudah e 72 hancus da ni...sdhla...

ok x folks?plssss Dying...............................................iiiiiiiiii.......................nk jimattttttttttttt

p/s: so gado sediakan bantal...so geram just hentak kat wall....Idea yg bgus btul x?
how nk remove my bad habit? asked adif stop cari pasal!!!!

ehmmm

U KNOW SOMETHING, NOW I REALLY CAN BE A MOTHER AND WIFE,


I can cook, Alhamdulillah, after work hard for it, not really work hard ya, weekend d best time for practicing, Spend weekend at home, almost 24 hours main games, gayut and berangan, best ke? but then miss Asyraf haikal badly, Lonely, miss lonely,pity ya, owh No…..clean up my room, yg mmg semak samun, luckily la ada new stuff yg boleh dimuat masuk kedlm bilik, so cantik my housemate said, tgkla sapa interior designer, nk hire me?surely NOT….jgn harap, heheh



Almost 2 days terperap dlm umah, mmg buat I think back what I really want in my life, I want him, I want he stay with me,give him what ever he should get, ya I cant denied the fact FA such a wonderful job ever, travel around globe, but then I believe one day without being FA I can do that. Now just focus on my career as Gov.servant, stay with such a wonderful Division, and apply for transfer after married.. what? When will be the date?dont know yet, but both plan dis comin Oct, the preparation still in progress, So just WAIT n SEE, doakan kami bahagia, even badai yg datang sentiasa menduga kami,



Almost 9 yers I waiting for that, waiting she called me and we had a great conversation, she was such a adorable mum ever, she cares about me, I should understand her more next, she gonna be my MIL, really, thanked to Allah coz she accept me as what I am, u know the moment I’m confused to choose either to be Fa or staying here, she give me an idea, she didn’t force me but then gave me a chance and talked nicely, she want me to have great job, but asked me to think bout my future, dia funny who told me she garang mcm SINGA? Cepat ngaku!!! B4 I ngadu dgn dia…



I called her Mak Cik, since dia mmg a bit traditional and Islamic, dan dia x abis bagi statement yaya kan budak Bandar mana nk makan IKAN yg mak masak ni, yaya kan BUDAK BANDAR mana nk dtg umah kita yg buruk ni, mak cik..sy bkn budak BANDAR la..sapa yg gtau mak cik ni..ahhahaha2 since dia tgk my pitcha smua hot and adalah gossiper yg told her that,..ahahah, but now she realize I’ll taking care of Hadif same like her, Cuma jgn sexy la next, free hair she don’t mind 5 times don’t ever forget…..hhehehhe



Really hope dis comin raya everything menjadi la, since I’m started to forget FA, huhu,…after bergado dgn my sis *mmg mcm kids la* tapi biarkanla, as what adif advice me better keep silent and cool, coz YAYA always HOT tempered….abes hp e72 dicampak nyer more than 10 times, cian tgk hp ni, mcm nk bli hp baru je, tp masih bnyk keperluan yg perlu dibeli, ehmmmm

Yaya kena matang, yaya kena sederhana dlm hidup ni, inila ayat mak cik,

Heheheheh

Kalau u asked me sapa yg mjadi my good listener,,……


K.teha la yg wat sy tenang sikit last weekend, dia temankan sy a whole day, we had great day togther,

Saya x suka rich woman, mostly blagak..heheh,
Situation 1:

Saya ada keta kecik je,

padahal keta besar, tu down into earth or saje nk bg mata kita terbeliak keta dia besar? Answer me? Or dia dok peril keta I?opss did I have a car yet?hahahahaha*yaya Crazy*



Situation 2:

Manila mampu nk travel2 ni, x ada wet, nk bli brng pun fikir bnyk kali.

Tup2 travel diam2…ahahahahah kelakar x?if mampu or not better u kept it silent



Situation 3:

Husband I kerja x la bagus sgt biasa je, tgkla umah pun x bsr,keta apa la lg,

Owh tidak statement yg mmg nk kne penampar padahal husband dia one of big boss, keta melambak kt umah, umah punyala bsr for me la….



Situation 4:

I x suka pembaziran, bli brang pun buatan GOMBAK

Cis buatan Gombak la sgt, baju smua bli kt gulatis, wordrobe dia pnuh baju kurung yg mahal tp x pernah ku lihat dia memakainya, almaklumla bknnya kerja pun, membazir je degree tu….handbag jgn ceta..





At the end I’m thinking I x nk jadi mcm tu….hahahaha, nk moderate je, nk hidup dgn tenang biarla dia kaya ke janji dia x kan Kacau my life after this…



X sabar nak mulakan fasa sbgai seorg ibu yg sejati, x sabar nk tunaikan kewajipan sbgai isteri, since dulu lg sy bkn anak mithali, so I hope after mulakan hidup baru sy nk jadi WANITA SEJATI….amin,



So dis comin raya saya akan beraya di umah Bonda sy di Kota Tinggi kemudian sy nk beraya bersama teman rapat di KOTA SINGA, since I don’t have friends sgt kt sini..Cis perasan la minah ni…



Ok dis yer nk g umah

DIAH kt Johor JAYA

NANA kt Majidee

IHsan kt Tampoi

Famy kt Skudai@ the rest la, kang type one by 1 dia kata poyo plak…

Ikin kt Kulai

IPIN kt Tampines

Sapa lg cepatla invite me….hehhehehehehhehehe

Tu teman rapat wajib dtg if not mampus kena marah

Gelabah

dis early morning I felt x tentu hala might be because I've decide to choose FA .........
Why FA and not GOV?

Sarjan Wan Sidek said: nanti ko myesal aja, aku cakap betul tgkla nanti..

Bayun: buatla yg terbaik utk aja dan adif, decide and plan ur future

Hadif: u g la FA tu, itukan ur dream job, janji u setia kat I..

Nura: Gov more stable, FA more income

who else?

opss from my sis

LIZA: ikutla nasihat kwn2 ko tu, diorg tu munafik tau cakap belakang je..

entahla kan, I pun mls nk fikir semua ni...yg pntng

I know the limitation as a muslim,daughter,mum,aunty,GF.....WIFE....
I want to be FA because

I can travel around d globe,

I can gain more knowledge,

gain new experience,meet more people,improve my communication skills,WORK HARD THAN BEFORE

Trired following their rules, even my idea they never listen, so.....even last night kept thinking Really ke I leaving Gov? I said YES I'm coz  Gov skrg x mcm last 10 years...so ..even MAS seems x stable juga on their financial but I felt as long as they pay me why not I try ya, lgpun My husband should work hard!!! I akan try manage my money properly!!!! yeah...I've to.....I'm not came from RICH family...My BF pun mandor je...hahahahahahahahha

hugs,

yaya

Owh yeah,

Mood = Nervous

why: SUBMIT RESIGN LETTER

hUGS,

yaya

Silent is better

Sharing is caring, am I right?but then not all can be share, certain part is too privacy and others should not know about that, ya we should hide from them....Just what I'm doin right now, what did happened between hadif and me only certain ppl knew it....thanked to beloved soon to be my BIL, both of u made my life cheers back..no words can describe all this stuff,  ya I'm not strong like others...I'm too weak!!! seriously..I cant even smile like before after all this happened...I cant stop crying.....deep inside totally regretted, look down into earth, Might be Allah test us again...after we forgot our duties as a Muslim... ya i admit that, I just hope everything smoothly gone, i miss my mum, I miss d moment she lend me her shoulder,she hugged me.now no more, far away from her,..I kept disturbing my soon to b BIL, he advice  me a lot, he support me from behind... I noticed all of them very nice, ya previously I thought all of them doesn't like me..but I'm totally Wrong!!!! they loves me!!! especially Ayah.....and Mak...*soon to b my Parents IN LAW*........Mak exactly like my mum,,,,but her attitude like my Dad...mak love to make Jokes...sayang MIL...hehhehehe, all of them really Sayang Saya!!!!... Mak Pesan...yaya can't always come here because neighbor loves to gossip...hehehe Ok mak yaya promise!!!! that we called it LIFE, we frust with sometthing, and in d others side We got something else!!!!! Sad+happy just playing round!!!! we should catch it!!!.....................dont make ur life BORING!!!!!


p/s:......ambil hati ur future Mum in law, pasti kamu rasa bahagia, bukan Bodek tapi cuba dekati hati dia, coz she knew her son better than us, almost 9 years have been dating with hadif, just now i really can get long with soon to b MIL, she shouted to me before, she ignore me, but then now we started to know each others, and we realize we WOman...our feeling same!!! we're sharing loves!!!!

hugs,

yaya

Totally down

Yup...really stress...unbelievable I'm d chosen One....OMG, please deleted or turn back the fact....malas nak fikir da,


dalam kedukaan pasti ada sinar cahaya....

thanked to Puan Jamilah coz started to sayang saya more than ur SON....

soon to be my mum in law...

mak...cis perasaan sudah......
Love u,...nanti yaya bring the cookies ya mak....


*wink*
mmg dis wek minggu stress...



hugs,
yaya

my e72...

OMG,yesterday 10 times (not once but almost ten)I threw my d only one handphone I've, OMG...regret...almost 6 months I'm using this phone I never threw like yesterday.
I kept promise never throw my stuff again!!!! hope I'll remove my bad habit...but SETAn asked me to do so...

I've had threw
* 10 handphones before...............
* my lappy....................
* camera.................

*my godness, until when all this habit will remove 100%.....
Thinkin to buy Bold 9700 or I Phone 3gs ahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

please give me an idea which one better....

hugs,

yaya

Stress Sedunia...

Stress Sedunia..why?honestly Office ni.... mmg pnuh dgn Suck ppl....entahla....F.E.D U.P sgt2....macam nk tampar sorg2 lelaki yg suka mengeluarkan kata2 lucah+hina pada diri ini....hello...sorry ya dari kecil hingga dewasa ni my family x ajar pun cakap open macam tu hingga akan wat org lain sakit hati.....even Hadif pun x ada cakap benda2 berbaur lucah...dia pun marah if  lelaki lain cakap mcm tu in front of me.....
Ingat lagi masa first time nak minta cuti ada ke hamba Allah ni cakap,Kiss me dulu b4 minta cuti...ya Allah naik bulu roma and macam nk tampar je...tp dia Boss kan....nak wat macam mana....inila takdir diri ditempatkan didunia penguatkuasaan...kadang2 boleh terima tapi kadang2 naik fed up....lack of knowledge la dorg ni...tu la b4 kerja siapkan diri dulu mental+fizikal..barula diri ini kuat utk berhadapan dengan insan2 ini.....
So kepada rakan2 yang bakal menempuhi dunia pekerjaan just get ready ya......
kepada manusia yang namanya dipinjamkan utk jadi post utama dlm FB kerana ketidak puasan hati diri ini....maafkan diri ku ya...yang pntng kamu tu ada anak perempuan so pls la bear in ur mind yang dunia ni ada hukum karma....aku bknla insan yang suka mrh x tentu pasal tapi bila cakap bab hak wanita aku rasa tercabar....perlu ka cakap pasal seks pagi2?n spoilt others' mood...jawab sekarang....


tinggalkan anda dengan renungan ini................
setiap manusia pasti punya hari yang menjadikan diri anda rasa di hina dan di keji,tapi diri anda jugala yang harus bangkit dari kehinaan itu dan menyedarkan manusia yang zalim itu sedar sepenuhnya.....
tidak perlu bercakap dengan manusia yang hanya bazirkan masa anda .....
tidak perlu cakap dengan manusia yang sakitkan hati anda...
gurauan ada hadnya....
Dignity adalah tunjang utama dalam hidup ini...

hugs,

yaya

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Stress+stress+stress=crazy..it was me....
Since new procedure have been introduce by my dept...felt damn S***..
Crazy girl lookin for a soul to make her life happy
Crazy girl desperate to make her smile back...
Crazy girl tried to hide bad feeling to someone....
owh no............

>>>>>>>>>(..)<<<<<<<<<

*

Hugs,

yaya

Bosan...

Hi,

saya mmg tgh bosan..dunno why...even during working hours dunno what should I do..ya Allah please open my heart+mind....ehmm..rasanya mcm nk jadi fully houswife je..tp bole ke saya ni?since dulu2 sy mmg minat sgt kids..kira if bdk kecil jmpa sy msti diaorg tertarik..ehmmm tula saya...
U noe since my lovely niece bole call me CIK FARA..so all of them da x panggil saya cik yaya lagi...ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
apala kan.!!!! I love when all of u call me......ishhh what should I do................

BORED WITH UR HAIR,...LET CHANGE UR HAIRSTYLE.....

HUGS..

yaya

home:(

B.O.R.E.D perfect word to describe my mood...
how about u?..
I bring my work at home...gonna to ask my housemate a favour...*finish up everything*
almost 2 days didnt give a ring to him...ahahah...
dont have credit...just hope everythings fine...

ok la..I dont have idea..

BORED...

hugs,

yaya

happy~!!

For a minute..dont know why heart ask me to open my Fb..so...just open for a minute...congrate hasila u getting back with ur lovely one...after...break up..hehhehe~!!! u never told me about that. but I cant felt it....u know ppl who born at 1987 was a loyal person...anyone deny about that...nope right it was a FACT...accept it.........CAN i active back my fb????U cant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..hoho~!!!

hugs,

yaya