Oh my Leg..I still nEed u....

I wake up as usual, 5.30am....I took my shower and i get prepared of myself.... I walked to the bus stop...and I felt my leg very pain..Oh My GOd.....Ya Allah...I try very hard to ignore it..but freaky pain......deep inside I'm crying......Pain,..... I recalled back how all this things happened..

JULY

The month that I waiting for,..birthday of myself,my sister,my brother,my niece,my auntie.......we're family of July...don't be jealous..............,my birthday but I got nothing....I just got something very bad, during that week my hubby and me we're kept quarrel each other, he ignore me,he didnt wish my birthday,..he didnt gave anything..So I let him go eventhough I won't that.....I'm freaky sad.....I want him back...and that day while I'm on the way to pavillion met my cousin he forgive me and and we're getting back together...I felt like dreams come true.....I keep dreaming...until when I want to cross the road,.....I saw the taxi speed...but why apis still cross???and i hold wan's shirt.....suddenly small accident happened....the taxi collide me..(myself was flew).everyone look at me....OMG....But I still can stand and walk...apis and wan worried bout that.... i'm ok dun worry........no need to get treatment.Really embrassed,I saw someone record what happen there..this year only apis gave me a birthday present....A ticket of dayang concert at Hard rock cafe....then now I got the effect....ehmmmmMmMmmmMmmm Yummie

Dayang nurfaizah at hard rock.....

Dayang & Wan....

(I took this pitcha)

We've so much fun there...:))))

NOVEMBER

The month that gave me gazilion experience..I tried to hate this month but I couldnt...both of my bloved born on this month, every year on this month make me pain, sick....and lonely.....EhmmmmMmmmmMmmmmm I hate!!!!I hate!!!!!! live without him!!!!!... Dis month make my life missing.....Really...I lost Nura n mokhtar!!!! I lost my spicy fOoD!!!!!! I lost my free time!!!! I lost my healthy..... n now I need to lost my leg>????? nope please I still love my leg...n I need it,,,:'( I can't walk like before...IsyhhHhhh...Go to clinic and get treatment????lazy,.....


Less for me...
Some for You...
Enough for Others..

My Life

~yaya@Jaja~

I do blame myself....I blame on my sheer stupidity... Mak and all important person of my life I'm sorry for everything from the first day I'm born or might be from our first meeting..until today.. I know how hard for all of u to taking care and control me.......All I do is give back pain...What a worthless life I lead????? Totally ashamed and embrassed.,,...But did I ask for sorry???? yeah for sure

I've a lot of flaws,I'm stupid and blind about love...9 years such a long times for any relationship,he's my first love and my first crush...but almost 1 years and half we decide to end up our relationship....hard for me to accept it...I'm indebted and grateful to you mr.Hadif...you opened my eyes...I was craving and starved for love...I never love my self back then..... EhMmmMmmmM all only my past story....I took it as a part and parcel of my life...I just need to give myself time to forget you....

I do love my life now.....my family,my hubby,my cutey,my friend and even my job....I move another step of my beautiful life......I never imagine  I'll fall in love with libyan people....he came into my life at the right time..I've been lucky to have u....U try to make me happy...u got the sense of humour...u make our relationship natural,u make me strong than before.....even our culture different But it's not a big problem...u're easy goin and everyone could love u..but need to take time...step by step...bare in ur mind.....

SuperWoman without the SuperPowers

 SuperWoman without the SuperPowers

Can u imagine that?nope right..but that is my new life now.....I have to cover others job, my officemate took  medical leave H1N1....Lately I go back home late,what should I do....But it's good things bcoz I learn a lot.... my healthy also not like before.....ehmmm I really won't talk bout that,... My hubby at libya he went back since last month (12th Oct) But everyday we'll keep in touch....Huhuhu rm2 per minutes???..so imagine by yourself....but so far he the only one my besfriend,mybest enemy,my everything...............i love him more than I could....for me just follow the flow...If my mum didn't accept him now it's still ok...step by step...can't push her to like him......My mum just worried about me,I'm her daughter....she won't the same things happen...so now I need to prove that my hubby is a good man and can take over her job.....HuhUHuhuhu...Then he'll know how difficult to care bout me..I'm freaky pamper+fussy+naughty.....but that was when I'm still not mature enough....nOw not totally change..but bcome a better person....

I love to cook...but just don't have chance to cook at my home,..my mum'll prepare everything for us...might be one day.....but still remember when I'm a student..my room will be the place for my friend especially ct,tqa,Diah,nana,nash,pza,ika and not to forget my bloved juniors jojo and the gang's...to study and hangout..... really bcoz I'll cook for them...espcially in ramadhan....U need to trust me.....

Now superwoman...Huhuhu...dun ever think in this world just have superman...but also have SUPERWOMAN.....HuhuhuHUhu.... and it's goes to mE....even now I loss my beloved friends that I knew her just around 3 month...but I really comfort to talk with her.....I felt down before...but now I need to think bout myself...my healthy....If she and her bf want to forgive me it's up to them...but I just told the truth from inside my heart,......I'm tired really.....U know where u can find me..so if u forgive then look for me...I always waiting for both of u......

I read one of my friend's blog....she talk bout show off I'm quit interested bout that....that I show off????let the people close to me judge that.........

ok la..enough for today...I really tired.........Daddddaaaaaaa

Enjoy the simple things in life

I'm very simple person...really am I??????sometime yes....or might b before I'm a bit fussy all the times..Everytime got money I'll spend it....not Wisely but ehmmmmm...Dunno how to explain....I do love branded items..I dun want to wear night market shirt...(rEAlly)..I only brought the original...SWear with that.....But Now..after working and got my own income....I appreciate money more than before... I've learn how hard to earn money...and how difficult to manage ur money...U need to give ur mum and dad,ur savings,ur house and other expenses..at the middle of the month u need to survive....huH..it's a part of life....I'm praise to Allah because people around of me very understand and encourage me....especially my bloved huby,k.yuz....both of them always keep nagging...n remind me...HuhhUH...Tired to hEar that....But what Should I do...HAhahhahahahaHAh

Now I planNed for my career n future...

I still remember how hard for me to let the offer gone....just like that,Since I'm 7 years old I want to b news reader and reporter...n I do hope I'll become in future....5th July the date of my registration for degree in mass communication major in journalism....But I'm not there...at the moment I'm freaky busy help my grandmother and taking care of her since my uncle passed away on 27th june 2009... U know I'm sad but I need to forgone that,...but younger brother further his degree in Uni.of Sydney on 26th July 2009 and K.yuz do her master 1st July.... Until when I need to burden my mum?????keep asking her money?not like both of them (adek and k.yuz) they're best student and always make my mum happy......me??? repeat the same paper all the times, make my mum cried,,..So I accept this job.....I never think I'll b a part of government servant...Now I'm.....here..working at film cencorship department Ministry of Home affairs.......

2009 will end up soon

I hope next year will b much better than this year...for sure...I'll further my degree.....really hope so.....Spend time with my family more than my huby...do hope we'll have a trip go to bali next year birthday present for my mum....I can't paid for what she have had give to me but just a little sweet memory .....mak fara really love you...eventhough I made u loss ur weight...HuhuHUhuhu I'm excited to see that...because everytime I called u U'll said that......

~Pain says Give me More~

Heart Never learns; a Gazilion mistakes

Life will go on,but mistakes haunt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love the journey of my life...........So exciting,adventuring.....a bitter sweet memories........

eVeryday,Everyseconds gave me a precious experience...HuHuhuhuhu

Had U ever face like I'm facing before????of coUrse never and ever......... Because

Each of us got different experience....

I've been Lucky Born as Siti Hajar Farah binti Tumeran.......

Daughter of  Pn.Saudah Hj Ali & Tumeran Hj Meskin

Sister of Sharul,Ayu,Ana,Fairus,Fared

Aunty & mumy of Haikal,Haziqah,Haziq,Haqimie,Putri.....

Future of???????? wait n see.....